One Week later
Hello, I wanted to update my Blog and let everyone know how I am doing. I am starting to pay off some debt but will not lie on this, I did relapse this week. I get in my head about this debt, and all the bills I need to pay and get very overwhelmed. I would love to hear from you guys more, and see if anyone else is dealing with this and what you are doing to help. After relapsing and losing more money I felt very depressed and down with nowhere to go. Now that it is a couple days after I am realizing this is doable again, but can't make the same mistake.
I am getting help right now, which is good but I need to not go back down this road. It is hard not to feel like a failure sometimes during times like these but we need to always look in the future. Some good advice I have gotten is that the past is the past, and we are humans we are allowed to make mistakes but we need to learn from them.
I try to hold onto the mindset of that this is a growing opportunity and not that I am a failure and let everyone down. It is easy to fall into that negative mindset and beat yourself up about it.
I would love for comments and people talking about there own experiences so we can have more conversations going forward.
Too have lost my entire year earnings, slept at my parents place cause had no money to pay rent. My uncle telling money is mental illness anyway.. but it's helpful to pay for rent and have better place where to be. I understand not getting huge emotions towards money would be ok perhaps, not value it more than close people. Got control over myself, thinking rather not playing with luck.. I meant like perhaps I win or may lose. In past anyway was thinking would not want to play in casino cause have heard stories and seemed there you have to have luck to gaining anything and it does not sound that good.. but ended up in there with my friend who invited me. I ended it cause was thinking it's rather luck to win anything and it's nonsense. And they told oh, this guy won $5000 last night. :O Yeah, perhaps couple of times in lifetime it happened.. meanwhile my family members earned it with businesses or with work every month.
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